My own fairy tale

Well that doesn't fit...

2006-03-14T05:23:13Z

Praise Lisa! She did the impossible I took the bus in by myself today huzza for me. Anyway work was pretty fun I got a toy sheep for free and decided on a wim to reorganize all the shelves, anyway got somestuff on my mind I'm off to go ponder, night all.

I'm a doormat for doormats even >

2006-03-12T07:58:23Z

Heh, time for an update

Good news:
- GSA has started and is amazing I absolutly love it we had so many people our first meeting
- I got accepted into Potsdam so I get to leave this town, not that anyone is going to miss me (which is becoming more and more apprent)
- I went up in English
- I started speaking to my father again
- Icon is soon
- As is Falo
- I discovered a new veggie pocket thing I can afford
- My trip to the muesum was amazing
- Spamolot is this week

Bad News:
- It is becoming more and more apprent just how little I matter to people I considered my friends *shrug*
- I went horribly down in Art History
- I gained weight
- I still don't have driving lessions
- I want to strangle Jon (my manager)
- My mother and I can't stop fighting
- I'm completly broke

Anyway now for my work hours

Sunday - S&S: 2:30-8: / 6 hours
Monday - EB: 5:00-10:00 / 5 hours
Tuesday - Off
Wendsday - S&S: 4:30-10:30 (dumass) / 6 hours
Thursday - EB: 5:00-10:00 / 5 hours
Friday - S&S: 3:30-9:30 / 6 hours
Saturday - S&S: 3:00-8:00 / 5 hours
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Total: (not counting wends) 27 hours

Doop Doop

2006-02-27T11:23:57Z

Ah the week off was nice... didn't do to much hung out with Eric, Mark, Britt, Jimmy, Alex C, and Stroker for most of it. Went out to eat alot for some reason. Anyway just so I don't forget I'm posting my hours on here.

Monday : EB 5-10
Tuesday: S&S 3-8
Wendsday: S&S 3-8
Thursday: EB 5-10
Friday: S&S 3-8
Saturday: Off
Sunday: Off

And now to do last min HW due 3rd period ^^

This is not about love.... because I am not in love

2006-02-23T09:22:04Z

Finally got myself set with stop and shop. My first day is Saturday, later today is my first day at Eb games, should be fun. I'm currently not in the best frame of mind if you want the truth. I'm very angry with someone that I considered very close to me... at least I did until as of late. Bah, I don't understand why people are such shitty friends and thats all I'm saying. Anyway one good thing is that I got RENT on DVD and its making me happy, RENT just makes life good.

To days of inspiration
Playing hooky, making something out of nothing
The need to express -
To communicate,
To going against the grain,
Going insane
Going mad
To loving tension, no pension
To more than one dimension,
To starving for attention,
Hating convention, hating pretension
Not to mention of course,
Hating dear old mom and dad
To riding your bike,
Midday past the three piece suits
To fruits - to no absolutes -
To Absolut - to choice -
To the Village Voice -
To any passing fad
To hand-crafted beers made in local breweries
To yoga, to yogurt, to rice and beans and cheese
To leather, to dildos, to curry vindaloo
To huevos rancheros and Maya Angelou
Emotion, devotion, to causing a commotion
Creation, vacation
Mucho masturbation
Compassion, to fashion, to passion when it's new
Collins
To Sontag
To Sondheim
To anything taboo
Ginsberg, Dylan, Cunningham and Cage
Lenny Bruce
Langston Hughes
To the stage
To Utah
To Buddha
Pablo Neruda, too
Why Dorothy and Toto went over the rainbow
To blow off Auntie Em
La vie Bohemm
Bisexuals, trisexuals, homo sapiens,
Carcinogens, hallucinogens, men, Pee Wee Herman
German wine, turpentine, Gertrude Stein
Antonioni, Bertolucci, Kurosawa
Carmina Burana
To apathy, to entropy, to empathy, ecstasy
Vaclav Havel - The Sex Pistols, 8BC,
To no shame - never playing the Fame Game
To marijuana
To sodomy,
It's between God and me
To S & M
La vie Bohemm...

meh

2006-02-18T07:28:24Z

Bad past month... haven't had very good luck. Had to put Belial to sleep today... she had cancer in her liver but it spread to her spine, she was in a lot of paina and even with all the treatment in the world she wouldn't have been able to use her back legs again. Its really depressing I have to throw out her cage and toys... I'm avoiding it. My mom suprized me though she suddenly took to BJ after we put Belly down, and bought me an I-pod and said I didn't have to pay for it or the vet bill, needless to say I was stunned. I still miss my ferret but I won't lie getting the I-pod was nice. I got my hours for EB but Stop and Shop STILL has yet to call me about hours I'm just going to go in to try get Jon to give me my hours.

Finally

2006-02-11T03:04:36Z

Okay I have been attempting to update this damn thing but I couldnt remeber the password. Away, intresting past month I must say, very very intresting. I came to a few new conclusions, had a really bad week, then had a really good one, got my hopes up and then crushed, then at the same time got somethings I didn't expect, its just been an intresting year so far. Well basic stuff to start I failed a class and did terrible in school. I still haven't heard from any colleges about weither I got in or not. Somethin I don't wanna really talk about. And I got fired from my job. Now more possitive things, I have two new job offers, I finally found some focus with school work, I reached lvl 50 finally in XI, and I've reacieved a few confidence boosters and just got to do a bit of soul searching. Anyway currently reading "Nickled and Dimed" for school on monday sad that I didn't get to go to ligaly and considering weiter to take both jobs. I might end up doing just that. Both jobs really aren't money makers and can't give me that many hours but both have perks Stop and Shop I get to work with alot of friends, EB games = 30% on games and working in a mall means I can get stuff I need in the same place. Anyway my mother finally called drivers ed so I finally can start learning how to drive. I guess thats all, night all.

Writting on the wall

2006-01-13T05:28:25Z

Today was great. It was just one of those days where good little things kept happening. I had the MoMa trip today for one. I found my Cd player. One of the best things though was something really simple, I went to the bathroom in the train station and on the wall someone wrote "Love exists" it was something so little but it just completely uplifted my spirts. When I got on the train there was an adorable bird looking at me (i'm easy to please). The metro was amazing I found "Persistance of memory", "starry night" and "Christianas world". One work the really suck with me was a german artists creation. He took hundreds of Tv's and filmed the last year on his life and on each tv he put a diffrent day. On the way back to home I found animal right activist in Pen station and got to join in a 3 second protest. And I am currently in an awesome party on XI, today is just a good day ^^. Night all.

update

2006-01-11T10:44:30Z

Okay summary...
- Lisa and Joe broke up (well that lasted long ><)
- I actually finshed one damn college essay... only 4 more to go
- Finshed GSA propsal
- Tattoo is iching like a mother
- Xi + Laptop = happy
- Total weight loss is now 20lbs (w00t)
- Rent is fricken awesome
- I considir Joneses car my new home ><
- Haven't slept in days
- Lisa is getting a along with Jackie (odd)
- I finally fucking called Mark to hang out in months
- DnD makes life good
- I need to do my laundry
- I'm to lazy to write an actual entry.

Hurray for inkness

2006-01-05T07:16:48Z

I threw up twice today which sucks... but I did get my tattoo which rocks. I'm very happy with it, and I'm very happy with how I handled it. I didn't move my leg once... granted the rest of me was constanly moving... apprently I bit Jones's nipple ><. Um anything new is Lisa's life? I finshed my GSA propsal still need to do my college apps.Thats all, night.

Yucky

2006-01-04T07:45:12Z

I am currently throwing up, and trying to distract myself. Finally getting tattoo, had a great new years; hung out with Joe then played DnD at Mark and Jons. Hurray I feel vomit coming on again... I'll update later.

Happy winter

2005-12-26T07:28:44Z

I'm very happy with this X-mas, I got a new computer which ya... just makes my life. I also got an new art set, some games, cds and movies but more importantly, I had someone to spend it with... well we more celebrated Hannuakah (some of you know what I mean. But anyway currently I'm a good mood, and getting ready to install Xi on my computer (which rocks). New years is coming up soon, which I am very happy about, not that this year wasn't good but I feel like the changing of years would do me good. Not much else to write, night all.

Lisa do good?

2005-12-20T07:46:42Z

For some reason I have taken to talking in 3rd person... the title is a prime example of that. Anyway what is worth writting about... um I got my SAT's back I got 1130 without the reading, not bad considering my old score. My computer is getting worse by the day, but that the only bad thing. I met a really awesome guy (Joe rocks) and I finally got started on my porfolio for art. Thats it, night all.

Not bad

2005-12-12T05:45:29Z

My birthday was a hell of alot better then previous years. For my actual B-day I saw rent (which was amazing), then hung out with Laura and Kaley at the Mall. At the mall ALL my ligaly friends were there, which was just amazing. I then called up Jones and hung out with him Jared and Glen. The next day I had my party, which was also great. Alot of people I wanted to come, ended up coming, it was really nice when Dmitry,Miguel,Kenda,Jared,Anothny,Ribs, and Tofu showed up when i thought they couldn't come. The party started at 5 and was supposed to end at 9... it ended at 12:30, lol. I didn't get that make presents but tis okay, I just liked seeing everyone. But I did get some really nice stuff though. Bode got me my damn lamp (the one I had wanted for forever). Mark got me and awesome oil burner. Tiffany got me a pacman belt, 10 gauge earings, and pocky (to bad I could eat it). Kaley got me another hat of sexy (ironically I found mine 10mins before the party ><). Jones got me a bamboo plant. Jenna got me a 200 pack of tea candles. Greg got me a Cd. I got 60$ of collective money. But the most popular gift, was the gift of presense, ><. I had fun,it was nice being around people that just rock my world. Oh I finally did something 18 and over, hurray for gambling! I won 20 bucks w00t (scratchy things, rock). Thats all, night.

P.S. - To the people having a crappy time, you guys know who you are, feel better kay.
~ Remember you can't tie chains, and the blindfold is your own doing - think 9 of swords
~ Think realistically, I know its hard when things are like this. (So High school lol)
~ When you remember what you wanted to tell me, feel free to. I always willing to listen if you need someone too.
(each aimed at diffrent person)

arcanearcher @ 2005-12-08T22:02:00

2005-12-09T03:15:39Z

In 5 hours I will be 18, I really exicting but at the same time kinda disapointed. There are alot of things I wanted to do before this clock strikes 3 am, I don't regret how I have spent these years but it would have been nice to go into adulthood feeling like I did everything I wanted to. I'm proud of the person I have become, the good and the bad. I'm also proud of how I have gained the in a sense, balls, to live for myself. But more then anything else I glad I have gained the ability to be honest to myself, and more importantly how to ask for help.
The things I haven't gotten to I hope to accomplish by the end of next year. I know its a bit of a strain but I have alot I want to do before I leave LI, luckly I did get to doing some of the things I thought I would never get a chance to. I was honest with certain people, and dispite my fears I gave a voice to my thoughts, which I never was very good with. I cleared up alot of issues recently that I needed to clear up, and I removed alot of the things that weren't working with my life. One major thing is I got to write my 100 things list, and hopefully I can finsh it before I go to bed to night. Tommorrow I am giveing blood (hopefully) thats a big thing for me, its a literal imbodment of me working past my deepest fears, blood and needles. I very glad I can wish my self happy birthday with a smile. I'm going to start off this year by playing in the snow, lol. Night all.

I'm feeling HALT

2005-12-01T06:05:39Z

College appications suck... I have so many essays to write... and I have the SAT's on Saturday. Feeling swamped with college work, aside I'm happy I'm finally getting this stuff done. I'm applying at Postdam, Post, Purchase, Platsburgh, MCLA, Manhatian, and Suffok... Ones gotta let me in right? Beside Post and Suffok all the colleges are away, which I'm not gonna lie I'm happy about. I'm really looking forward to going away for college, I hope I get into one of the away ones, but Post is the best one for what I want to major in. Anyway, I'm going to be really happy when this week is over so I can relax a bit, my b-day is so very close and X-mas is almost here... speaking of which I finshed most of my X-mas shopping all I have left is some of my family, happly Dan's gift came in today which means I got my squall necklace finally, oddly the sent me two and didn't charge me *shrug*. Thats is night all.

Do not mock the potter

2005-11-23T02:36:04Z

Saw the midnight first showing of Harry Potter, twas awesome. They changed a few things and cut out some scenes but they did it the right way, I loved it. I started working on my college stuff, it actually is going alright, the only crappy thing is how many essays I have to write -_-. I got my recommondations atleast, Mrs.Whitfield, Mr.Shinners, and Mrs.Brian, they should all be done by Monday. Rent is showin tonight Ahhh I wanna see it, I wish I wasn't leaving for florida so me and Emy could go see it. Anyway my hair is gone, I got sick of long hair and cut it off lol. Its short again, not insanely short but pretty short. Thats it night all.

Hope is for rookies

2005-11-18T02:45:10Z

Hate... internet, it fooled me and worked for about oh 1 day. My computer is getting worse, I need to buy a new hardrive and transfer my data, but here comes the funny part... My computer won't stay on long enough for me to transfer my data. Sigh anyway um what else I really really really need to look at apartments... My mother and I have not been able to spend more then 3 seconds without it turning into screaming. I'm not kidding she and I are going to kill each other, and we are getting a bit to personal in our arguements... I really can't stay there to much longer, she just is like a vampire on my mental health. Everything is a fight, I asked for a fork and it ended up in her calling me a failure as a human being and me saying she was moraless whore. We really can't live together much long, pray I get into an away college. Um anyway... possitive things, turning 18, and I have Harry Potter premiere tonight w00t.

How troublesome...

2005-11-12T09:24:47Z

I kinda forgot I had this thing... so whats new in the life of Lisa? Um well Jp's party was awesome, I had alot of fun. What is it about Jp's house that makes men turn gay, all of us act like morons and people lose all modesty and diginity? Anyway, I got an extra shift finally, Sunday 12-8. It a really crappy kinda shift but it makes up for my hours lost and adds an extra days worth, so I can deal. Also, I started hanging out with an old group of friends; Jones, Alex C, Stroker and Fatima. I'm really happy that, this happened. Its really nice having that dynamic again. I haven't had that in a very long time. Um what else... I finshed Naruto anime and started reading the manga which is just x100 better in my opinion. Thats about it, night all.

BYOB

2005-11-05T03:00:37Z

I swear to go I am going to destroy two things by monday... one being my computer which is giving me more shit then a gay mans first time (Bryan I love you). The second being my mother, I don't want to go into it but lets just say I need to start looking for an aparment... not by my choice. Anyway, positive things...
*not getting fired
*getting a raise
*protest tommorrow is still happening dispite a ton of mistakes in the date and time on Linda's part
*party tommorrow
*found out more stuff about ways to get to Africa
*birthday in in a month
*me and greg are finally gonna hang out again
*finally got an SAT prep person to help me
*closed out with no problems at work
*um and I finshed all my papers dispite my computer erasing them 4 time -_-

What else, um not to much I was sad... Laura and Amanda went to a Trice concert and got me free tickets to a Plague of Locus and Lamb of god show in the area (don't ask why they had them there). It was yesterday but just as I went to look for a ride I remembered I had SAT prep, which sucked I was gonna give the tickets to someone else... but when I went to go give the offer the person kinda said something that offended me so I just ended up throwing them out. Not much else, night all.

Don't try to live so wise...

2005-11-01T03:50:23Z

Intresting weekend... Um I got my first girlfriend and got promptly dumped 2 days later, lol. Anyway, went to Ligaly had fun as always, and I also got to go to a party which though somewhat crazy was very fun. Today was Halloween I hung out with Eric and Britt for a while, then trick-or-treated with Laura, Britt, Ellie, Vannessa and some other people I can't remeber. It is also Samhain which is kinda like my new year so I am using this as a time for self reflection and calmness.

And the clock struck 13

2005-10-24T10:31:49Z

Gahness... I'm in deep shit. I need to finsh anotating 1984, I completely forgot and its due tommorrow. I spent the past 5 hours on 30 pages and its still only worth a C at best, stupid AP classes... I have psyhics HW too, just shoot me now ><. Sigh, pray for me, I'm gonna need it.

On a happy note I finally beat Kingdom Hearts Chain of memories and I started on Rikus side. I also found my Metroid Prime echos and started playing that but the first boss kicked my ass in so many ways.

... +Edit

2005-10-17T08:04:30Z

Computers suck major ass...

That is all.

Edit:
I hate computers... but that aside. Went into the city with Jenna Sunday had a blast (you know you loved the grape leafs). Today I missed 1st and almost second period because of my mom and my computers stupidity. I finshed 7 and I really was happy I replayed it. Watch Advent children was a blast now that i remebered all the little things from the game. I have been on a movie buff today, I watched Advent Children, Hercules, Pretty woman and am now starting on Quest for Camolot.

I feel soggy...

2005-10-14T08:38:58Z

The rain! The rain! If this keeps going I'm going to have to canoe to school. Don't get me wrong I love rain but fuck monkeys is it ever ending? Anyway, currently avoiding an essay for English, we had a weird week school wise, Monday off, Wendsday half day for seniors, and then thursday off, my inner clock is all screwy and my English and Pyshics teachers went crazy. 200 questions in pyshics, and 2 essays for english. I finshed the questions and one essay. Currently avoiding the second one and trying not to pass out. Tommorrow = work, with heather and Dan... they hired Heather to work on fridays which makes me a bit nervous, no idea still what my bosses are thinking and no word from any place I applyed yet. I can now apply at stop and shop again, I just realized that, but Britt got a job there so I'm getting the feeling they are all filled up :(

Almost beat VII I'm enjoying this game far to much for my liking... thats it all night.

14 to 21... WHAT THE HELL?

2005-10-11T02:55:00Z

Yesterday was fun, I was supposed to go into the city with Jenna and go to a protest. Jenna realized last minute she lacked the nessary funds, so I then proceded to beg Britt to come with me (I needed someone else to come). It cost me a pretty penny but I really wanted to go. We ended up walking from 33st to 4st because subways suck. We didn't get lost... much. But anyway it was fun, we ended up going to the Olive tree and drew pics of Bode on the table. And then walked around a bit. Today was okay too. I ended up seeing "Waiting" with Laura and Ginny, which just made my day. That movie was great, it really is just what it is like working at a diner. Anyway, I started playing FF7 again and damnit I like the game this time and as horrible as it is I actually like Aeris's charater now. Um, not much else to talk about, currently avoiding homework, thats it night all.

Doop

2005-10-07T09:31:26Z

I went job hunting today, that was interesting. I was kinda surprized there were alot of places hiring.I applyed at Joannes, Party City, Marchells, FYE, and in a week I'll apply at Stop and shop, Dollar tree and Looney toons if I don't get a call from any of the places. I think Joannes is my best bet, 3 people just quit and the manager, told me she would call me for an interview by sunday and that they needed people. I can't help but wonder how Tony and Kim are gonna react to me quiting. I know they want to fire me but I can't shake the feeling they are gonna be surprized. I feel a bit sad I liked working there, but I need more moeny and so far every place I went to was willing to pay 7 an hour so I jumping on thoose if I get them. Thats it night all.